I have never in my entire life been on a business trip let alone in a different state by myself! So I am excited for my trip next week!! : ) It’s going to be an adventure I am sure.
I am also secretly excited for Tuesday’s dinner engagement. I am sure you all would love to be a fly on the wall in whatever restaurant we end up at. I thought I’d be upset at Justin for putting the whole thing together but after writing Chapter 36 of AOTM – I kind of miss everyone so I think it’ll be nice to see people again. Maybe … hopefully … this is Justin and James we speak of so maybe this whole thing is a bad idea and I STILL want to know HOW they talked Timothy into this dinner! I will find out if it is the LAST thing I do. : ) But yeah … I’m secretly excited. Shh! Don’t tell anyone though – I’m still playing the ‘pissed off Ann Mathews’ role right now while inside I’m smiling.
Anyway so I did my taxes today!! I owe the Federal government $594 plus the stupid $54 fee for making payment arrangements with them. Whatever! Damn taxes! I get $97 back from the state though. : ) I filed separately this year and you all may think that it was a stupid idea seeing I owe nearly $600 but in the grand scheme of things – Cory filed with his mother which worked out WAY better for us. So eh – I owe $600 – whatever! I’ll pay it off in $25 installments! : ) I know – I’m so horrible aren’t I?
Anyway … I want to update this blog more and I think I shall. But sometimes I really don’t know what to say. My life consists of work, STILL trying to organize the new house, my husband and our two dogs.
Speaking of the dogs – Charlie is still fat and Duncan is still crazy! So not much else new there. : )
I really have nothing else to say. I finished Chapter 36 of AOTM today. The first BRAND NEW CHAPTER since 2009! I felt accomplished. I FINALLY after 9 years sat down and wrote about my relationship with the infamous James Black. You don’t find out the sexual details until Chapter 37 where I lose my lesbian virginity. Hehe!
Speaking of lesbians – to clarify for Ms. Fremont who I know still reads this (hi) – I do still like women. I may be married to a guy but it doesn’t mean that at the end of the day I find the male sex more attractive. I have officially decided I find the female sex more attractive (I mean come on I can only name u two hot male celebrities and I could give you a list a mile long of hot female ones). So my husband is the exception to my lesbian rule. That is what I have decided – I am a lesbian married to a guy. It works for me! I love it! Haha! And I LOVE confusing people. And I love the attention and I love pissing off Ms. Fremont. So hey it all works !
I know – I’m done! I am officially rambling at this point.
I’m gonna go plan my trip next week and smile some more while still playing the ‘pissed off Ann Mathews’ role.
“I am being optimistic and am going to start planning the wedding,” I said excitedly into the phone line.
“Huh?” he asked confused and groggy. “Ann Mathews, it is 5:30 in the fucking morning! What the fuck do you want?”
“I’m talking about your wedding! I am totally being optimistic! I think the Supreme Court is going to make history and rule that gay marriage is constitutional in all fifty states thus allowing you to marry Elliot in the state of Arizona!” I said happily.
“Ok first off who said anything about me wanting to actually marry Elliot?” Justin asked.
“Oh come on! You call him your husband for crying out loud! Don’t you want to make it official?”
“Not really,” he said.
“Oh come on! Humor me!! Besides I am sure Elliot would love a big fat gay wedding.”
“I highly doubt that!” he exclaimed. “Besides, you said so yourself, marriage is overrated.”
“You know what Mr. Lenox that is not the point! The point is that you and the man you call your husband will be legally allowed to get married! That has to mean something to you! In a country that has denied you that opportunity, you may finally get your day in court. Come on! You can’t just sit there as a homosexual man and tell me that means nothing to you!”
“I suppose it means something,” he sighed. “Look Ann you are all about the gay pride, the rainbows, the flags, blah blah blah. I personally don’t give a fuck!”
“It’s not about rainbows and flags, Justin! It’s about you and Elliot being allowed the same rights and respect as a couple as Kristopher and I!”
“Well I suppose you do have a point there. If you can marry Kristopher Hall, anyone deserves to get married,” he laughed.
“Whatever!” I huffed. “Look if the Supreme Court rules that it’s constitutional for gays to marry in all fifty states, you and Elliot are getting married! End of topic!”
“Fine, we’ll go to the justice of the peace or something,” he said.
“No! You are having a big, over the top, gay fucking wedding! And I am being your best woman!”
“Haha!” Justin laughed. “I don’t think so!”
“Why not?” I asked annoyed.
“I wasn’t your best man in your wedding so you do not get the respect to be my best woman!”
“What?” I asked taken back by what he said. “You don’t really mean that. Right?”
“Well, I wasn’t even invited to your wedding so why should I even invite you to mine.”
“We got married in Vegas! No one was invited!”
“You invited Amber Brooks!”
“We needed a witness!”
“Right, and I couldn’t be that witness?”
“You know I do recall at the time of our marriage you and I were not speaking because hm, let’s see, you hated my husband.”
“I don’t hate your husband. I just dislike your choice of men.”
“Whatever! You have had your fair share of questionable men throughout the years as well, Mr. Lenox.”
“True, but I never married them.”
“Whatever!” I huffed again with an eye roll. “Enough about Kristopher and me. You and Elliot are getting married and I am going to be your best woman!”
“Fine! On two conditions!”
“Well first the Supreme Court has to actually rule that it’s constitutional in all fifty states. I admire your optimism Ann Mathews, but I highly doubt they will rule that way. However if they do, you have to get married too.”
“I am already married,” I said confused.
“Well you and Kristopher get to get re-married in the big, over the top gay wedding style,” he said. “Or you know if you wanted to choose someone else I mean that would be okay too.”
“What is your issue with my husband? It cannot just be that he is the infamous x of Josh Randolph!” I exclaimed. “You know I do recall the other day you said you needed to sit down and have a nice, long chat with him. So I thought you were going to let the whole ‘Kristopher hate rant’ go!”
“Fine, there is more to the story besides him having some ungodly engagement to the Josh Randolph!”
“I knew it!” I exclaimed.
“He totally tried to fuck my boyfriend at the time, Lewis Spencer!” Justin exclaimed with a sigh.
“Lewis Spencer?” I laughed. “You’re joking right?”
“Nope! He totally wanted him! I could see it in his eyes!”
“You could see it in his eyes?” I laughed. “Wow! Really, Justin? Really?”
“Yeap and to top it off, he totally wanted to fuck Timothy Edwards as well!”
“Um, I recall the story going that Josh cheated on him with Timothy Edwards. Not the other way around.”
“Oh no, Ms. Mathews! Go check your sources again! They went out on a date!”
“Are you sure you are not confusing Kristopher with Joey?”
“Mmm … no!” he said. “But still the point Ms. Mathews is that Kristopher Hall not only was engaged to the Josh Randolph. He totally wanted my boyfriend!”
“You give me a headache!” I exclaimed shaking my head. “I mean this in the nicest way possible – let it go!! Whatever ungodly hatred you have for Josh Randolph and your entire …,” I paused with a smile. “I know why you hate Kristopher,” I laughed.
“You hate the men who had no desire whatsoever to be with you. Hence Tom Lenal for example. The one who ‘got away.’ Yes, that is it! You hate Kristopher because he never had any desire to sleep with you.”
“That is bullshit!”
“You may find your husband ungodly attractive but I do not,” he stated.
“Whatever! I do recall it was the year 2007 and we were stalking his myspace profile back before we knew I would end up marrying him one day and we both said and I quote ‘ah, the cute ones always move to Lakeworth after we leave.’ I think my theory is correct.”
“I never said that, and if I did it was in the contents of AOTM Part 2. I was playing a character in your stupid story!”
“Whatever!” I laughed. “That stupid character in my stupid story is, oh my god, YOU!”
“You know what Ms. Mathews, I think it’s way too fucking early to be having this conversation!” Justin exclaimed. “So are we getting married or not?”
“Fine! If the Supreme Court rules, we will have a double wedding. A big fat over the top gay wedding right there in Lakeworth.”
“Fine!” he exclaimed. “Now that you have managed to ruin my morning with your crazy rants, I am going to go and try and salvage what little of it I have left.”
“Whatever! Good Bye, Mr. Elliot Charles!”
“It’s Mrs. Hall!” I exclaimed.
“Whatever,” he said hanging up the phone.
After the Affair
Coming Soon – soon meaning in 20 years because I have YET to finish An Affair of the Mindwhich is the series BEFORE After the Affair but whatever
Last night the City Council of Phoenix approved on a 5-2 vote to outlaw discrimination against gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender residents. I have to applaud the city of Phoenix for taking this step forward. Many people are calling it the “bathroom ordinance” simply on the fact that a male to female transgender can now use the gender bathroom they prefer without fear of discrimination. I have read the pros and cons from most sides and obviously I am with the five members who voted yes on the ordinance last night. If the City of Salt Lake, Utah can pass a LGBT ordinance than any city in the United States should be able to pass one. The fear that passing such an ordinance will cause a harmful financial burden on the city of Phoenix due to the $2,500 fine business and/or individuals would have to pay if they do not comply is ridicules Here we have Salt Lake City – probably one of the most conservative states in the Country – passing such an ordinance and even going further as to say the ordinance worked. It brought in businesses and organizations and now the city of Salt Lake is trying to get the ordinance passed state wide. Such an ordinance will not hurt your economic development it will only improve it. Diversity is a key thing many businesses look for when looking to relocate, and I am glad the city of Phoenix was able to see that.
I don’t agree with the last minute amendment the council added to please the churches. At some point the church has to learn to accept the gays, lesbians, and transgenders just like they did the blacks. It’s the year 2013 and the gays, lesbians, and transgenders are NOT going anywhere. I hate to be blunt – actually no I really don’t hate t be blunt – but all you LGBT haters out there will eventually die off and what will be left are people like me and my generation. It may not happen in my lifetime, but I am sure in my children’s lifetime the thought of anyone not treating two couples of the same sex as equals will be a laugh (I do think we have some more time to go on the topic of transgender though I don’t see why – being transgender has more scientific backing behind it than being homosexual).
In the end, the vote of the Phoenix City Council today is just one step forward in the long battle the LGBT movement faces. But I have confidence that someday gay marriage will be legal in all fifty states, that the topic of discriminating or not discriminating against someone who is LGBT will be a non existent issue, and that the thought of two guys or two girls wanting to adopt a kid will be accepting just like the thought of a guy and a girl wanting to do so.
I have said it before and I will say it until the day I die – there is nothing wrong with being a little queer. From my own personal experience – gays have more fun. All you straight people out there are totally missing out.
Congrats to Phoenix and the five council members who made the right decision last night!
“There was a conversation once of me becoming a male. In fact, I think I even looked up the price of female to male surgery.” – Me
“There was a conversation?” – Kris
“Yeap! You see I liked the gay men and I figured in order to get with the gay men I needed to change sexes. So I looked into it. Why not? If it got me the gay man, I figured I’d just go for it. But then I met you so now there is no need to switch.” – Me
Opps … sorry people! No juicy gossip to report. Nope nope! You all have to read AOTM Part 4 to find out the juicy gossip I was just informed of this morning. It’s juicy enough that I can’t repeat it on this here blog, but you know ALL juicy gossip will go into AOTM. Nothing will be spared in the making of that story! Muah Muah!
Anyway I felt bad about last night. So I wrote Cory this email this AM. I wanted to make sure he knew he was appreciated.
I just wanted to apologize for my actions last night. I want you to know that I really do appreciate you going out and finding a job. The money you bring in will help us extremely. I am sorry if I come across as a selfish bitch and ungrateful for the fact you went out and got a job. I am very grateful. I will get use to you not being around a couple nights a week. It’s not the end of the world. Besides you can come home, tell me all about your day (well night actually) at work (and all the juicy gossip cause you know I like juicy gossip) and we can hang out in the AM which is something we never got to do before. But I do appreciate you and everything you do – I just wanted to say that. You mean the world to me. I know I don’t say it enough.
I love you!!
So anyway Cory made money last night! A good $50 in commission and he brought home $50! Yeah!! : ) Not that $$ matters though but I suppose it makes the job worth it. Oh and I haven’t met his boss yet but I love him already! Juicy gossip! Juicy !! And to top it off – juicy gay gossip! Muah! You all know – I am addicted to juicy gay gossip! Hello – it’s what AOTM is centered around (well that and a murder! Duh!).
“Yeah I figured as much. You know how it works though people either love us or they hate us. There is no in between.” – J
“Yeah but she hates me because I kissed a girl and liked it. Her reasoning is kind of petty if you ask me.” – S
“Oh come on we all know back in the day she kissed a girl and liked it too. It was just back in her day admitting to liking it would have meant the end to her picture perfect social life. She’s just jealous because it’s the year 2012 and you had the nerve to kiss a girl and like it publicly where as she will never know what that feels like.” – J
So I am officially the Treasurer for the Women’s Club. I guess some people are having a fit over it. I know – the x lesbian turned straight (I actually prefer to be called bisexual over straight but for the purpose of my point I’ll go with straight) – is in charge of the clubs money! Oh no! What a crime! Haha! Oooo … some people really have NOTHING better to do with their lives then devote time to hating me? I find it rather funny. I mean what did I ever do to you besides try and shake up the establish and bring homosexuality to the Republican party? ::shrugs:: Ahhh oh well! I’ll sit back with my popcorn and laugh at the comedy you bring to my life. : ) Anyway I’m happy to be the Treasurer. Never done it before so should be interesting. Can’t be that hard. Right?
Anyway, so I am in the works of getting a new layout for the website up. I am hoping to get it up Friday! I know I said this LAST week but I really am serious! It’s going to be somewhat different yet somewhat the same. I want to focus on three areas for the site – the blog, the web design and the stories. Hopefully it all comes together so I can reveal the new layout to you all!
Anyway so they found out what was wrong with Debbie. She finally went to the doctor today. Cory is staying over with her tonight to keep an eye on her. She got some meds. With the help of them it should fix the problem. Hopefully!
Anyway I LOVED that song Colton sang on Idol tonight! I loved the song when I heard Rihanna sing it but she did a rap version of it. So I have to say I love Skylar Gray’s version 1000x better! I just love it!
I am hoping Colton wins or at least gets 2nd place! I really like him and I know he’d be a CD I’d buy! It’s like Daughtry – I LOVE Daughtry! Any CD they put out I LOVE IT and I think Colton would be the same way.
And I think I have found that reason. His name is Paul Babeu.
We all know my story – the gay Republican who was shunned for being gay. Then she married a guy and oh guess what – was shunned for having per-marrital sex with a guy who has had sex with guys for the past 10 years prior to marring her! Oh gotta love “family values!”
We all know the number 1 issue that separates me from being what some call a “true” conservative Republican is the simple fact that I have had sexual intercourse with another woman and frankly – I enjoyed it! Just cause I married a guy doesn’t mean I still don’t support the LGBT movement and want Taylor Swift as my future wife.
I think it is issue like this that separate people and divide people especially when it comes to the Republican Party and the Republican Party of Mohave County. Like I said in a prior post, I was loved and adored by the very same people who after they found out I was gay shunned me and hated me for it.
This is the year 2012 and two people – who just happen to be the same sex – who love each other cannot get married in the United States of America (only in select states). Come on people! Love is love!
Thankfully my generation seems to grasp the concept of love unlike other generations and thankfully my generation IS WHAT WILL take over the Republican Party and thankfully ONE DAY SOON gay marriage WILL be allowed in ALL fifty states! I have no doubt by the time I die two people – despite what sex they are – will be able to marry.
As for Babeu’s pictures with his x-lover: have u guys not seen my AOTM Part 2 photo shoot pics?
Due to the content of the rest of this post, I have hid it under a “more” tag. Please note: The following contains photos NOT approporiate for those under age 16! You have been warned. Wanna see some shots from my AOTM Photo Shoot? Click the “Continue reading” button!
And I thought it was a cute, neat little idea! So I have decided to link up as well!
Now my first time “blogging” was back in 2002 before the term “blogging” ever existed. Granted all my prior posts have been taken down and put under an encrypted password protected folder on my website, but at one point in time those old blogs were the talk of Lake Havasu (or so I have been told).
I started “blogging” on my very own Geocities site back in July of 2002. I wanted a place to call home and I for one reason or another wanted the “world wide web” to read my every thought and desire. I guess I started my own blog and website back before it was “popular” to do so because back then people thought I was crazy.
Anyway my very first post was written during the summer between my 9th grade and 10th grade year.
A little background on the blog: Mike was one of my best friends/x boyfriends who during the middle of our Freshman year in high school decided to up and go live with his mother in Georgia. Mike was “bisexual” but me and him always argued over if homosexuality was a sin or not. See Mike came from a Christian home and being gay was considered “wrong.” His mother found out he was in homosexual relationships and asked him to move back in with her (his parents were divorced and he was living in Havasu with his dad when I met him in 8th grade) so she could help “de-gay” him. So he moved back. He came back to visit me the following summer which is when he told me not only was his mom “de-gaying” him but that he was HIV+. And that my friends is how my Sophomore year in high school started and the VERY beginning of my novel Affair of the Mind.
Here’s my VERY FIRST EVER blog posting from July 17th, 2002!
Dear Diary, Wednesday, July 17, 2002
Well I just got back from therapy a couple hours of go. I think I am doing quite good in therapy. I still got a limp but in time it’ll go away. I talked to Mike today. We worked things out. I still think he’s selfish in ways, but he’s Mike. No matter how hard you want to change him you can’t. Cause he’s Mike and only MIKE can change him. I still care and I will continue to care about him but I can’t help him unless he asks for it and that’s something I need to realize. I have said mean and harsh things to him (In my mind I am just saying em to help him ) but I know it hurts him when I say these things. I have apologized and I hope he knows that I love him. I just want to make sure he is ok and that his future is HIS future not somebody elses or a deadly disease. So Mike if you ever read this I want you to know I love you and I never mean to hurt you. Anyway I am looking to go see the big SPIDER movie Friday with me other friend, Brooke. ( 8 Legged Freaks ) I have this obsession with spiders. I wanted a pet spider at one points but I never got one. Well anyway I’ll write more at a later date. So until then BiBiBi
- Sarah ( The spider freak!)
You want to know what I find amazing about Ron Gould and his “followers” – the hate they love to spread throughout the Republican Party. God forbid someone is “gay.” I know exactly what Paul Babeu is going through right now because Gould has treated me the exact same way he will continue to treat homosexuals for as long as he can get away with it.
I find it ironic that you all were major Paul Babeu supporters back in 2009/2010. Everybody “loved” Babeu up until what … three days ago? Why? Because he’s gay and his x-lover got pissed off at him and decided to go spill lies and hate about him around. I bet you if 1) Babeu wasn’t gay and this was a woman and 2) he wasn’t running against Gould – that a lot of people would be supporting the good old Sheriff right about now. But history has a way of repeating itself and in this case – that’s exactly what is happening.
I remember moving to Mohave County in 2008. Everyone loved me. I was 22 years old, young, vibrant, a Republican, and someone with a college education and promising future. Gould would always come up and talk to me at the Republican events and my young, naive self actually liked the guy and I did support him in the 2008 election. And then 2009 came around and the news broke that yes – sweet, innocent, young Sarah had a gay past. Not only was my best friend gay but I was involved in the LBGT movement in Havasu and I did consider myself “gay” at the time. In fact, I do still consider myself bisexual. I do find women more attractive then men even though I am married to a man. My point – once the news broke – people stopped being so friendly. Gould being one of them. I don’t believe the guy has spoken 10 words to me since (unless he had to for business related reasons).
I was told by some – you can’t be gay and a Republican. Well you know me – I said screw you and continued not only serving on the Women’s Board but going to the events. Since Gould became Chairman of the Republican Party – you don’t find me at many MCCRCC events. Why would I want to go? I’m gay remember. Gay and Republican don’t go together.
I really threw everyone for a curve when I married a man didn’t I? A man who use to be “gay.” Yes, I do LOVE confusing people. But it doesn’t change how I feel. I may be married to man but I will support the LGBT rights movement until I am blue in the face and until the day I die. And the LGBT’s WILL get their rights and they WILL marry one day in all 50 states. Why? Because people like you Gould will grow old and young, vibrant, “gay” Republicans like me – will take over.
So you can like Babeu one day and hate him the next – the same way you did me, but the truth of the matter is simple – YOU CAN BE GAY AND A REPUBLICAN! And there is NOTHING wrong with being gay. What is wrong is people like you spreading your anti-gay hate around in a public light. That makes you very unfit to be a politician if you want my opinion.
As for Babeu’s X-Lover – the guy had no right to do what he did and I do believe and I do stand by Babeu when he said he did nothing wrong. In the letter you wrote to the Kingman Daily Miner today Gould you said, “I would think that if he truly feels he did nothing wrong, he would welcome such a review to clear his name.” You must have missed the tons of news articles and news reports yesterday stating that Babeu HAS ASKED for an investigation into the claims. But then again you were kind of busy yesterday passing budget proposals behind closed doors.
I hope Babeu wins. I will be voting for him and supporting him. And if he doesn’t – I hope Paul Gosar wins. Anybody but Gould. Because what has Gould brought to Mohave County besides anti-gay hate? Hm?
The last thing we need is to send a bigot like that to Washington D.C.
“The history revolving around my misdemeanor is just this,” Hale said in a prepared statement. “I was tempted and fell to temptation which in turn caused me to come out. As it stands now, I am a faithful LDS church member that understands my temptations…I refuse to let this hold me back in running for office. This is a chapter in my life that is closed and am fully focused on what is best for our City.” Hale said.
I just happen to be one of those people who believes you are born gay! Now I know some of you may question that belief given my own history, but I don’t think one can just wake up one day and decide not to be gay. Now granted I do believe being gay is a choice. If one wants to deny who they truly are than by all means – it’s their choice. But you don’t just get to turn “gay” off.
I almost got excitied for a minute there. I mean in Kingman we have a transgender running for City Council. So I was excitied to hear a gay man was too. Until I read the article.
I don’t live in Kingman but honestly – how do you expect to be honest and truthful and run the city when you can’t even be honest and truthful about yourself.
You’re lucky I don’t live there because I would make sure you don’t have the vote.
Pathetic is all I have to say!
Oh and Brett Hale … damn that name sounds so familiar! And 2005 … hmmm … I do believe we have met. : )